AOL – Day 5 – Who are you

Friday 7:30 PM

The teacher now tells us we are going to do a powerful group process now.  We will enquire into the nature of our true identity. We are asked to pair with another member of the group.  I pair with a middle aged guy maybe about forty years of age. The teacher tells us the rules of this play. One of the person is A and the other is B. In my group I am B and the middle aged guy is A. Each of the guys have 10 minutes to each other. First B asks A the question ‘Who are you’ and A replies. The question is asked persistently by B and A goes on giving answers. So I start

B: Who are you

A: I am a banker

B: Who are you

A: I am an Indian

B: Who are you

A: I am an ugly Man

B: Who are you

A: I am short tempered

B: Who are you

A: I am the husband of a beautiful wife

B: Who are you

A: I am the son of a loving mother

and so on and so on

The next ten minutes it is the turn of A to ask ‘Who are you’ and B to answer.

So I give a lot of answers. Try to be as truthful as possible. Avoid any conjectures like I am atman etc.

The essential objective of this process is to uncover the different identities we possess. We have multiple identites with the basis from our family, religion, caste, nationality, linguistic group, psychological temperment and many other relationships. This is an exercise to uncover and find the multitudes of identies that we have and also try to find out if there is one lasting true identity. No answers are given. Just a process of exploration.

The process helps in peeling the different layers of our personality and being. Like peeling the layers of an onion. Finally at the end of ten minutes we have no more identities to recollect and no more answers. We become silent. It is the upanishadic process of ‘Neti Neti’ – not this not this.

I like this process and have contemplated on this many times, although not with another person in a regulated way. I think it is tough to expose yourself fully with another unknown person. I think self understanding can be more effective when done alone. Most people feel awkward in exposing themselves before strangers. Some folks even brag about some of their superior identities. But the guideline is to be truthful and not repeat the same answers.

This self enquirey is a good one. After the exercise we discuss the effects of this process with the teacher.

Its 8:30 now.

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AOL Course – Day 5

It is Day 5 of the course.  We are two days into the practice of Sudarshan Kriya and this is the third. Morning I get up and practice Yogansanas, Pranayama, Kriya and Meditation. I am thinking these practices are enough and I should not need further practices which will take more time. I also need time for my studies and can’t spend more than 1.5 hours for yoga. Cannot be a full time yogi with an engineering course to complete.

Evening 6:00 PM

I go to Vyakti Vikas Kendra. Teacher and volunteers are in the centre – gossiping and chatting. I make friends with some folks. Each of them have a story to tell on their experience of Art of Living. One person is present says he is associated with Art of Living full time and after his four year stay in the ashram, he has finally learned how to smile. I think that is too heavy a price. But I do not know the full story of the guy. Maybe he had a horrible life before.

We start the pranayama practices. Ujjayi, Bhastrika and Long Sudarshan Kriya. I get up from the Kriya a bit dazed and sleepy. The time was 7:30 PM.

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Day 4 – Second Satsang with Ravishankar

6:00 PM

Many more people have arrived in Vyakti Vikas Kendra. Some folks come in with Harmoniums. There are a few foreigners in the group. We are totally about 50 people in the second floor.

The Bhajans start.

‘Om Namah Shivaya’. This goes on and on. We all sing. No sign of Ravishankar.

‘Om Namo Bhagavathe Vasudevaya’ Starts. Most of us are singing. Some of them are shy and don’t like singing. Some are just making lip movements with not much sound coming out. The AOL teachers are trying to out sing each other. They are the guides and need to set an example to their pupils. I am singing as well.

Still no sign of Ravishankar. His seat is empty. It is one of the traditions in India among religious Gurus and Politicians. They never come on time. Most times it is on purpose. The wait and suspence increases the anticipation of the followers. People wait and wait and finnaly when they see their leader they go into ecstasy.

Ravishankar has still not arrived. People are looking at the room where he is in. There are some people with their cordless phone moving in and out of the room. Maybe Guruji is giving dictates to the different centres around the world. The people coming in and out of the room seem very important people of high social standing. The singing is going on wehave sung that Guru is everything – Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva. We are now singing glories of the female goddess Durga.
Its 6:30 and Ravishankar emerges from the room in Spotless white robes. He is humming the song and making mischeious gestures. He comes and sits cross legged on his throne. All our eyes are on the master. He smiles at all. People garland him. One Garland, two garlands and many many garlands. he now starts throwing the flowers at all of us. People are diving to catch the flowers. It is guru prasad. The singing continues. We sing of Krishna, Radha, Rama, Shiva. We leave no stone unturned. We invoke all the major gods. One white lady was dancing. Some of the Indian women in traditional attire are little bit embarrased but they manage to keep their smiles. One art of living teacher also joins the white lady in dancing. It is all blissful. Ravishankar is making all gestures in his hands. Sometimes he closes his eyes and goes to trance and sometimes he opens his eyes. Throws some flowers and again goes back to closing his eyes. Its 7:00 PM now.

Ravishankar adjusts the small microphone in front of him. That is an indication to stop singing. Slowly the singing stops. The master speaks. He involes the silent guru Dakshinamurthi and chants a sloka. Then he opens a book on Shiva Sutra and chants one of the shiva sutras. Ravishankar talks today about auras. He says diseases manifest six months before in the Aura much before it becomes a physical reality. He also talks about the importance of Food and satwic food. Not only the importance of the quality of the food but how it is prepared. he mentioned the cook influences the psychic condition of the food. He gave an example of a 70 year old sanyasi who was staying in his ashram. This fellow was a celibate since many decades and one day he was called for dinner to the house of a devotee. After dinner and while sleeping this man started to have ‘Kama Vasanas’. Poor guy. Then he came next day to Ravishankar and asked him why so. Ravishankar mentioned that it is because of the Food he ate in the house. The people who cooked the food were full of lust. I started wondering what kind of mind the cooks in our hostel mess harbour. That’s where I have my breakfast and dinner.  How can I come out of these bonds. Ravishankar finished his talk and asked us if we have questions. One man asked how to be ‘Stithapragna’ – the one of steady conciousness. Ravishankar did not like this question or the man. He told just reading books and picking up sentences like Sthithapragna and wanting to become that is meaningless. Ask some original question and do not try to test his knowledge. The man became silent. One lady asked how can we be always blissful. He said pranayama, kriya, meditation and proper food. He said it has been proved by western scientists now that Sudarshan Kriya can change your aura through kirlian photography. Ravishankar showed a photograph of a women before Kriya and after Kriya. Beofre Kriya her aura is grey and she is gloomy. After Kriya her aura is brigh saffron and she is smiling and radiant. I was not sure whether this photo was real or hoax created by some charltan in california. I had read one book which had kirlian photographs which were all black and white. Maybe technology has improved. (Now more than a decade later Kirlian photography has been proved as a hoax).  But now we are all convinced and made a vow o practice pranayama and Kriya regularily.

Its 7:45 now. Ravishankar starts a Bhajan – Radhe, radhe and people join in. Again a round of raptourous bhajans and finally it ends at 8:00. Now time for prostration to the master. I wait my turrn. After most of the crowd have finished I prostrate the Guru and smile.  I tell him I am doing basic course. he asks me – how is the kriya. I told him it is wonderful. He said hmm and he asked me whether I am coming for the two day residential ashram retreat. I say yes. He says that will be good. I ask him whether he has any special instruction and message for me. He says just practice pranayama and meditation. I say thank you and go down. Eat the prasad which is my favourite south indian flavoured rice. Then walk all the way back to my hostel. I am looking forward to the Residential stay in the ashram over the weekend.

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Day 4 Begins

Thursday

I got up early in the morning and did my usual yogasanas, the ujjayi breathing, Bhastrika and the short kriya.  I went to college as usual.

5:00 pm

I arrive at Vyakti Vikas kendra and we assemble for the Pranayama and Long Kriya. There are more people than yesterday. Many folks who have completed the course have joined. There are more AOL teachers now.

The teachers guide us to do the sectional breathing.  Then they guide us to do the Bhastrika Pranayama. We all chant OM three times in unison. Then Sudarshan Kriya starts. Ravishankar begins his Soooooo Hummms. We breathe, some people shout, some cry, we breath in and out in the three rhythms for half an hour as guided by the tape.  Sudarshan Kriya over Ravishankar guides us to lie down on our back and relax. Relaxation is very nice. We get up after 15 minutes. Its 6:00 PM now. Today’s kriya over. Now we have the satsang. Second time I will be seeing Ravishankar.

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AOL – Day 3 – Don’t be a Football of Others Opinion

Its 7:45 PM now.

We folks have finished Sudarshan Kriya. The most unique selling product of Art of Living.

Now begins the knowledge for today. The aphorism for today is ‘Don’t be a Football of Others Opinion’. The teacher tells us that we are all the time shaped by other’s expectation of us. He also told story of Aesop about a man and his donkey. How due to opinions of others he started changing his stances and finally instead the donkey carrying him he was carrying the donkey. The teacher asked us to review the situation in our lives where we have been the football of other’s opinion. We reviewed. All of us have some thing or the other. Social interactions demands from us in many ways to comply and dance to the tune of others. I am aware of it in myself how I have allowed other’s opinion in my self and how it has shaped so many of my behaviour. Good learning.

The teacher recaptulated the AOL aphorisms once again – Present Moment is inevitable, Accept everyone and every situation as they are, Expectations reduce the joy and Don’t be a football of other’s opinion. The four aphorims are good. I think I should internalize these things. Its dinner time now.

We start preparing our raw food, cutting vegetables and of course the older folks have brought in already prepared salads. We mix all of them together and have a feast. We also talk and gossip. Teacher also talks about his Guru Ravishankar and his profound qualities and miracles.

Teacher says tomorrow is Thursday and time for weekly satsang with Ravishankar which starts at 6:00 PM and he asked us to come at 5:00 to do pranayama and sudarshan kriya. Then we can attend the Satsang. He mentioned that Guruji is revealing secrets from the Saivaite text Shiva Sutra.  He says first time in history anyone is talking about these secrets. Obviously he does not know or thinks we do not know.  There are several commentaries on Shiva Sutras avialable. And from what I heard Ravishankar speak last week his is not so original. The narration and structure of his discourse has a clear and distinct influence from Maharishi Mahesh Yogi and Osho. Maybe they should add another aphorism to Art of Living – Do not imitate. Or maybe I should accept them for what they are. So I do.  

Day 3 is over and I walk back to my Hostel room.  Sudarshan Kriya had been quite relaxing and I am a smiling. Not much different from many of the breathing meditation techiniques I had done earlier. When I had done the dynamic meditation of Osho I had gone ecstatic. Maybe Osho is my Guru and that is my path. Expectations reduce the Joy.

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AOL Course – Day 3 – Sudarshan Kriya

Wednesday 6:30 PM

Teacher now explains Sudarshan Kriya. There are rhythms in nature – day-night, seasons and so on. In our body also there are rhythms. Modern life we have lost the naturnal rhythm and the best way to come to natural rhythm is through practicing rhythmic breathing. In Sudarshan Kriya we breath in different rhythms Long, Medium and Short. He says Kriya was devised by Ravishankar when he was in silence for ten days in Shimoga district in Karnataka.

Teacher then asked all of us to sit comfortably and follow the instruction from the tape. The cassete was wrapped in saffron cloth. To signify the sanctity of the recorded instruction.The cassete was put inside the tape recorder.  

We were asked to sit straight and relaxed and for people who cannot sit cross legged they can sit in the chair or even lie down. Tape Recorder Switched on.  We breath in whenever Ravishankar Says ‘Sooo’ and for ‘Ham’ we breath out.

The tape begins:

Ravishankar in his effeminate voice starts the chanting – Sooo hum, Soo hum for which we breath correspondingly.

Initially he chants the long breaths

Sooooooooooooo  hum Soooooooooo hum …… after a few rounds he switches to a faster tempo the medium rhythm

Sooooo hum Soooo Hum Sooo Hum after some more rounds of this he switches on to a much faster rhythm

So hum so hum so hum .. this goes on for some time

them he goes back to the longer rhythm

Sooooooooooooo hum Sooooooooooooo hum  and so on . Across all the three rhythms the exhalation time was the same – hum.

This whole thing is repeated some 7 rounds of Long, Medium and Short Breaths. In each round of Ravishankar’s chanting there were 20 long breaths, about 70 – 100 medium breaths, about 60-80 short breaths.

This whole breathing exercise was about thirty minutes. Some of the folks couldn’t bear the deep breathing and were coughing.  Ravishankar inbetween the chanting of the So hums sometimes used to exhort things like – ‘Continue Continue dont stop the breathing’, ‘ Breath in your own comfortable rhythm’, ‘Whatever thoughts or emotions comes in breath it out’.  Sometimes people says ahhh or laugh or tell some gibberish.

 After the end of the seven rounds of breathing Ravishankar asks us to lie down on our back and relax.  We lie down and there is a tingling in my arms as a result of so much of breathing in the last half an hour. We relax for about 15 minutes. I feel very relaxed. Near about the end of fifteen minutes  Ravishankar starts giving instruction to focus and relax our feet, calves, thighs, abdomen, navel, chest, arms, throat and face. He then sings a sanskrit sloka – ‘Vande om guru paduma paraga…’. I think this is from Ramacharita Manas of Tulsidas but not sure. Maybe I should check it out Then Ravishankar says from the recorded cassette that if we are ready we can turn to our right open our eyes and get up. We all get up.  

This was the long Sudarshan Kriya. The teacher now asked for our experiences. Some of the folks said they felt calm and peaceful. Many felt the tingling in their hands and feet and the face becoming numb with hyper oxegenation. The middle aged guy also said he saw his blue pearl again.

Teacher said good good. He also told that there is an enormous amount of mental, emotional, physical and spiritual benefits to this breathing exercise.It was around 7:30 now.

I asked the teacher if I can get a copy of the tape. Teacher reacted sharply and said - no no no. This tape can be owned only by the teachers of art of living. This is the long kriya and should be done only at art of living centres. There is a Short kriya which he was going to teach which can be done by us at home. The short Kriya is an abridged form of the long kriya where we breath the long medium and short breaths for 20, 40, 40. That is 20 long breaths, 40 medium breaths and 40 short breaths and this cycle is repeated three times. After the completion of this we can take a few long deep breaths and then sit in silence for 5 – 10 minutes waiting for meditation to happen.

This was the short kriya which he asked us to practice at home starting from tomorrow morning.

  I wasn’t surprised about this new revealed technique at all as I could trace the technique back to the rebirthing holotrophic breathing excercises and the chakra breathing I had done earlier in the Osho centre at Kumarapark in Bangalore. Swami Anand Swabhav the Osho Sanyasin and meditation teacher had guided us into these cathartic breathing techniques giving us the rationale behind each and every breathing rhythms. The breathing is done is a continous rhythm without stopping. There were specific emotions and corresponding emotions which were expereinced in this. Osho had spoken extensively in his works on the breathing rhythms and their cirresponding emotional and physical states.  In contrast to this I found the AOL teacher lacking basic knowledge of pranayama on most occassions and on top of this the teacher was highly secretive and cultish about the breathing techniques. The empahsis on the lack of openess in the Art of Living course with respect to the breathing techniques (which in any case is not original but made to look like one) runs counter to my sensibilities on ‘Art of Living’. I always hold the axiom of Rabindranath Tagore  ‘A world where knowledge is free’ in high esteem. According to me a great teacher is one who can impart Knowledge  in full.  But in order to create a mystique around practices and wares they sell groups like Art of Living make simple breathing techniques into patented knowledge. They also create a dependency and a parasitic support for the organization by withholding information and make the people come to their place to practice the ‘Long Kriya’. It is true that Yoga practices should be done under expert guidence as there are indications and contra indications for every practice. But in assembly line yogic courses like art of living  we find the teachers main qualification is obedeince to the guru and group and upholding the secrecy of the so called innovative practices. THis knowledge in any case is common knowledge and available in the public domain.

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AOL Course – Day 3

I get up early in the morning did some yogasanas and then practice Ujjayi Sectional Breathing Pranayam – 9 rounds in each section. Practice three rounds of Bhastrika Pranayama and Chant OM three times.

I sit down and meditation and do the panchakosha meditation for 20 minutes. I am feeling calm and peaceful now. I also did some yogasanas which I have learned earlier. I then go about to college and also library. Spend the day as usual.

Wednesday Evening 6:00 PM

I reach Vyakti Vikas Kendra with my vegetables.  Cucumber and carrot again. Teacher is already there and he says ‘Jai Gurudev’. This is the standard greeting in Art of Living. Even on phone instead of Hello they say ‘Jai Gurudev’. Instead of Goodbye they say ‘Jai Gurudev’ . Nice way to economize our vocabulary. I decide to play the game as well. So I also say ‘Jai Gurudev’. I want to be close to the Teacher, otherwise how can I become Sherlock Holmes.

Today Teacher says is a great day of our life. We will practice Sudarshan Kriya. Teacher is building up the pitch and momentum. Our anticipation increases.

All the fifteen of us now start practicing the pranayama taught in the last two classes. Ujjayi sectional breathing, Bhastrika and then chant Om three times. Now teacher tells us we can go to the Loo and drink water as we should remain undisturbed for next 40 minutes. We will be learning Sudharshan Kriya.  I dutifully go to the loo pee and drink water. I come back quickly and sit down to receive instructions. I do not want to miss out on anything. Its 6:30 PM now.

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AOL Course – Day 2 – Banquet

Its dinner time. Its also time for socialization. Everyone wants to be close to teacher. Talk about themselves.  Teacher also is trying to impress all of us.

We get together in the ground floor. I with my carrots and cucumber. Many people have brought raw food preparations and juices. Fruit and vegetable Salads and Grape juice. I join in cutting some vegetables. The pretty girl also joins in.  The teacher now says raw food has high prana and will give us lot of energy and also very cleansing.  He also asks us to eat slowly masticate the food and chew every morsel.

We talk and gossip for some time. Get to know each other. One person owns an electronics company. He is also very jovial.  I think if I can impress him and get close to him maybe I can even get a job in his company after I finish engineering.Thats another three years from now and too much in the future. I should be in the present moment.

The teacher told me that tomorrow he is going to teach Sudarshan Kriya. I am thrilled. I liked talking to all the people there. I feel so good meeeting so many new people. I walk back home feeling pleasant and happy.

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AOL course – Day 2 – Acceptance

Tuesday 7:10 PM

The teacher now imparts wisdom. The wisdom for today is ‘Accept everyone / every situation as they are’. This is the third aphorism of art of living. I feel I am deficient in this and need to put this into practise.

Teacher asks for our experiences. I tell the teacher straight that I can sometimes be judgemental and not accept people. Many folks also shared their experiences. One lady mentioned that she cannot by any means accept her mother in law who is nothing short of a tyrant. She has to live with her day in and day out. She almost broke down while telling this story. Teacher said she should practise acceptance. But lady was adamant. She says she can accept anyone except her monster mother in law. Teacher told her just try and there will be magical transformation. I am also in the side of the teacher. I think she should try out this technique. Her emotional storm ended she was silent. She also looked embarrased having given voice to her personal feelings in front of complete strangers.

I feel I should meditate on this phrase. The need of the hour for me is to accept everyone and every situation as they are. No anger, self-pity. Just peace. It was 8:15. Time for food. And Satwic food.

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AOL Course – Day 2 – Bhastrika Pranayama

Now teacher told us to go to the loo if we want to as we will be starting pranayama now. I go to the loo and then drink water. A bit dazed after 20 minutes of meditation. I also happen to stike some conversation with the middle aged guy. He is a Muktananda follower, practitioner of Siddha yoga and also does pranic healing. No wonder he saw the Blue pearl.

Its 6:40 Now

We do the Ujjayi Sectional Breathing Pranayama sitting in Vajrasana

Teacher now asked volunteer to show Bhastrika Pranayama. Bhastrika means bellows. The bellows of a blacksmith.

We all sit in vajrasana. Hold our hands at the level of the chest. With the fists clenched mildly and the thumb in between our fingers. We raise our hands up on the in breath and bring it down during our breath. This is done rapidly.

The teacher goes like this : Take a breath in. Breath out. In Out in out in out ..

This is done for some 20- 30 times

This process is repeated three times.

Bhastrika pranayama over. The volunteer is also practising the tri bands (the three locks) after each round of pranayama. I ask what is it and can we also do it. Teacher said only after advanced course we should do tribandas and this is not taught in basic course. I always liked Bhastrika pranayama. It was invogorating and energizing.

He said this is finishes the pranayama for today and now we all can chant Om. We all chant OM three times.

We are all peaceful and the time is now 7:10 PM.

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